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  • Writer's pictureJoyce Davis

Fear

Updated: Jun 27, 2023


Oh joy, oh rapture unforeseen—I got my computer back, it's been in the hospital. Now it works great. And it even appears that my keyboard works better.

Did you miss me?

No? Oh well. You had other things on your mind. I do try to publish a blog on Tuesdays, though. And did write one on an old slow unreliable computer, but it wasn't hooked to WiFi, so I let it go. Now it is Thursday. (Think of it this way, if this is this week's blog, it must be Tuesday.)

On Tuesday I used my oracle technique, where I randomly opened a book to see if it had a message.

I opened Jen Sincero's' book, You Are a BadA** How to stop doubting your greatness and start living an awesome life.

Page 20, "Fear is For Suckers."

Well, Crap!

Okay, I agreed to read whatever came up. I read Sincero's story of how she and a friend drove through the endless New Mexico landscape and hiked a beautiful red dirt path until they came to a cave, the place her friend wanted her to see.

It was really only a hole in the ground. Her friend threw some knee pads to her and a flashlight, then crawled into the hole. Jen had no interest in caves or holes in the ground, but she followed her friend into a space where she had to hold the flashlight in her teeth, and the walls were that was so tight they had to tuck their head to their neck.

Rattlesnakes, monsters? How would they escape them?

Jen followed until the friend finally sat but still had to tuck her neck and told her to turn off her flashlight.

Black. Black, black, black. Blacker than she had ever seen.

I was waiting for some luminescence or something, but it was only the black, and FEAR.

Sincero was about to have a total scratching screaming, claustrophobic crazy screaming fit, or not…

She crawled out of that cave with a profound understanding that fear was a choice.

I would have crawled out, pounding my friend for taking me there.

And then I thought of a time when I felt panic. I've have had moments of fear that I was locked into a bathroom. But nothing like the day I felt stuck in a tube.

I was doing a process where blindfolded, we entered a structure, a labyrinth, called "The Tank."

It was a humongous tent labyrinth. Our goal was to find the center and the openings between rooms that were sometimes just holes in the walls. I never found the center. But made a profound discovery on how to trust something besides my eyes to maneuver a space. I learned something about crowds. They have enough padding on their bodies that you can push through. I learned how to find holes and crawl through them while trusting there was something on the other side.

But that wasn't enough; on the next go at the tank, they had added tubes.

TUBES! You had to crawl through tubes with a person in front of you and one behind. I felt trapped. In that tight space, I found air holes in the tubes, so I sucked in a goodly amount of air to try to calm myself, for I felt panic as I had never felt. I knew I had a degree of claustrophobia but never anything like that. I wondered if that claustrophobia had been instilled in me when the little neighbor boy and I got trapped in a closet, and mom rescued us. But Mom wasn't there to rescue me that day. My eldest daughter said she was also caught in the tubes but thought she would just nap. I couldn't imagine.

Later I found a tube outside, and since no one was there, I attempted to crawl inside, but only the length of my body. I kept my toe on the outside edge. Again the panic came, so I scooted back out.

Joseph McCllendon III, a neuropsychologist, said, "If you are afraid of a Rottweiler, you can bet there will be one in my office when you come in."

Be reasonable.

The answer is to face our fears in a safe environment--desensitize. I would trust Mc Clendon not to throw me in with a Rottweiler that would tear me limb from limb.

But I didn't trust a rescue the day of the tank and the tubes. The people who monitor the tank would eventually go through it, I suppose, to see if there were any leftovers and pull my limp, sweaty body out. I didn't feel that I was dying there; I feared the feelings of panic. So, it's FEELINGS we are afraid of. When is fear a friend? When is it a foe? It always means to keep us safe, that is its purpose, yet sometimes it gets overzealous when is no need, like when the media uses fear tactics to sell a product. Baby foals sometimes get crushed when run into a trailer with adult frightened horses. They had good reason to be afraid and to try to escape, but they were little and are forced. Maybe that's what we fear.

There is a time to trust that fear is there to protect you, and when it is blown out of proportion. Don't stay in a sweat lodge until you can no longer breathe. Get the hell out of there.

I trust you to care for yourself the best you can using your brain, heart, and intuition.




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